Understandably, these last four months have introduced me to emotions and challenges I have never faced. On June 8th, it will have been four months since Barry died! I have undoubtedly scaled some new terrain. While time seems to have evaporated, I have made some incredible progress.
Still, there has been discouragement. Since the day after Barry's passing, I vowed to stick to my low-carb/ketogenic lifestyle. I knew it was essential to stay the course and take care of me. I had lost 41 pounds! I was not willing to trash that success. Food could quickly become a pacifier, and I refused to let it.
Despite staying the course though, I began to gain weight.
Out of necessity, I had abruptly begun a new vocation about five weeks after Barry died. I became a Patient Specialist with a major hospital. I had previous customer service experience but had never worked in the medical field. I had jumped directly into the fire and was enduring a longer commute to boot!
One day, after battling traffic, I pulled into a strip mall, horribly depressed. I felt like a spent, frumpy old woman whose waistband was beginning to choke my spirit. Seeing my reflection in my car's window offered no comfort.
Now, I believe that God is more willing to speak to us than we are eager to listen. (And no, Joyce Behar, I am not mentally ill.) In a still, quieting voice, He nudged me. He reminded me that five things factored into this weight gain.
- The stress of Barry dying suddenly and leaving me on my own
- Grieving his loss
- Being thrust into a sedentary job—in a cubicle—for 8 hours a day
- More driving time in rush hour traffic
- Not getting enough sleep
I had left a more active position and a commute that was only 10-15 minutes each way. My life had undergone a major rehaul. My operating system was affected.
So, I countered with positive steps...
- Reading the Bible and plugging into peaceful, soothing outlets of strength and hope
- Allowing myself to grieve and heal
- Utilizing the four flights of stairs to my office, parking my car further away, and doing planks to strengthen my core
- Leaving earlier for work to beat the traffic and listening to life-building audiobooks
- Prioritizing my time so that I can get more sleep
I AM NOT GIVING UP!
Perseveringly,
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